Sometimes, if not, all the time, things may not be as easy as it may seems, and vice-versally, things may also not be as tedious as you may think it is.

I used to dread working.
Refusing to find a job and procrastinate my way through the holidays.
Because i didnt see a need for me to work,
And most importantly, I feel that it's a waste of energy and is tedious.
I would rather slack at home and sleep for 12 hours per day.
Else, meet up with friends to slack.

But ever since i started working, all these negative mindset changed.
And thats when i realised that working, might not be that tedious afterall.
Although there are really times that i get scolded for doing something wrong.
Especially, when I am in a service line.
But ironically, they are the part and parcels of the working environment that makes it really interesting.

It's tired nonetheless, and many times, i feel so discouraged.
Money aside, but frankly,all the scoldings and discouragement shapes me to become a better person.
Each failure is just another learning experience,and a stepping stone closer to perfection.

Working has also made me realise that life will never always beds of roses.
You know, having people gossiping behind your back and judging your abilty to do work isnt appealing to me.
And meeting some demanding customer that thinks that they are always right.
Leaving us with no alternative but to give in.
All this clashes with what i believe in, and my principals.
But placing my beliefs and principal next to the customer is always right policy, its just like comparing the size of an ant, and me.
WHy? because customer pays us to do the service.
And yes, the world revolves around money.

Enough said about "i used dread working" thing

I used to think that I am good at, what i am good at.
Sometimes, i cant help but to wonder why many things happened.

I used to think that, friendship blossoms when i show my care and concern.
But failed to realise that care and concern is just one of the many pillars supporting friendship.

I used to think that if i have constant communication with a friend,
We will more or less understand each other more.
But i failed to understand that the more two person communicate, the higher the chances of the two person facing conflicts.

And and and, i used to think that we are always in full control over human relationship.
But in fact, chemistry plays a big part.

Lastly, I always thought that smiling at others will earn me one big smile back.
But i didnt know that smiling, has different forms too.
Being kind to others, dont always result in they being kind back to you.
They might, smile at you, and laugh at you behind your back, for your stupidity.

Friendship aint as simple as it always seems to me.
Some uses underhand methods to bring you down infront of other friends.
Keeping you in the dark, leaving no clues for you to even resist, nor start standing up again.

But i am still glad, to have some genuine and real friends around me.
They are no longer just good friends to me.
But they are my true friends.

On a lighter note, i was talking to this TJC girl this afternoon.
And suddenly, my mind went blank.
Heatbeat tips a beat faster.
Awww...