How i wish,i can cheer up but just chanting,cheer up,cheer up!

But as much as i wanna cheer up,i simply cant.

How can things ever get worst?

I skipped this morning web design's practical because i took the wrong bus.
I was at kun's house bus-stop,and was supposed to board bus 15.
From afar,i saw a half-blocked bus that ends with a 5,and without hesitation,i board onto it.
I was quite sleepy as i didnt manage to have to good sleep previous night,therefore,i dozed off on the bus.
When i woke up at about half-hr later,i realise that i was at hougang.
I was so shocked!i quickly alighted the bus,and realise that the bus i took,was 55,instead of 15.
And when i finally reached tampines,it was already 9.30.

Instead of heading to school,i headed home hoping to get some nap.
But i didnt managed to.
My brother was argueing with my father.
Haiz.

I headed to school,and thankfully,school was so much better.
Lesson ended,and i headed down to the library cause i dont feel like going home.
And slacked there till 6.
I decided not to go for tkd training,and just wants to find something to do.
I headed to ITAS,bought some snacks,and was heading home.
Saw a friend,we said hello to each other,and walked off without a bye.
Guess,we have our own things to do,and cant even spare 5mins for a small chat.
But it's happening too fast.
It has only been a few weeks,and now we dont communicate much in any form of communication already..
Guess,i wasnt over-worrying,it just prove that my instinct was right.

Went home,and realise that something drastic had happened.
My sis decided to shift to her friends house,and me,to kun's hse.
Leaving my bro and my parents at home.
Our family is falling apart,and it wont be long,before my parents sells the house,and each of us will lead our own life on our own...
I saw that coming.
And all these,wont happen if not for my bastard elder brother.

I am losing my kinship and my friendship.
And i am getting less alert day by day.
I dont know what is going to happen to me.
Despite eating 4 bars of chocalate,it still dont help.

I hate restrictions,i just wanna live my life happily.

Now,i cant even concentrate on my homework,my brains is just full of thoughts right now.
I had clean forgotten all the things that i had learnt in lecture.
Am i going to flunk because of all these?