A letter to myself

Ah Boon!

Brace yourself together!
You can do it man.
You are not living for other people but yourself.
Dont let what that doesnt matters you,bothers you.
I believe,others wont want to see you this way either.
Stop using this as an excuse for more chocalate.
It's not good for you.
Didnt you say you wanna slim down?
Why make empty promises?

Others had moved on to lead their own individual lifes.
With or without you.
And if you dont get your butt moving right NOW.
You will remain in this form in the 3 years to come.
What for?
When they dont even care?
Look at you,where did all your so called "good friends" went to,when you needed someone to talk to.
People whom aint that close to you,showed you more concern.

Why are you so sensitive?
Why are you kicking a big fuss over such matter?
It's only a trivial matter yet you are making it sound so big.
Dont you find yourself irritating?
No wonder all of friends left you.

You deserve it,and if you dont change,you will suffer.
May this be a lesson for you.

You are always looking at the small portion of disappointment,and neglected the bigger portion of happiness.
Count yourself lucky to be C171.
They are such nice bunch of people!

And also,meeting once a week is better then nothing right?
Why is it that you find it hard to accept?
They have their own friends to entertain,so do you.
In cases like this,you will have to make the wisest decision

Somethings are best left unsaid,
Rather then thinking,they had abandon you.
Why not respect their decision.
You yourself know that if you continue sticking with your secondary friends,you will never know more new friends.

We make the decision to whether which path to take.
So,dont make yourself as if you are the sorriest person in this whole world.
You are lucky enough already!


I am contradicting.
Yet,despite all said.
I cant help,but to end off with a sigh.
Haiz.

I really wanna stay happy,cheerful and lively even in the night.