After sticking 2 the com for a couple of hrs.

I had finally decided 2 go study for my physics test tmr.
I need a breather!

O's coming,while having intensive study is impt,
Dun forget 2 relax!
"To rest is 2 walk a longer distance."

Although i dun do intensive study,i realised tat i slack more den i study,
DIE!
Yet i need a breather.
Contradicting.
Have 2 learnt 2 adapt 2 the pressure tat i am gonna faced tis year.
Especially when O's is jus 80+ days away.

But still we need 2 rest,
Or we will end up in woodbridge rather then the place tat we wants 2 be in when we receive our result next year.
Studies can realli make a person go mad.

Tat's why man created the COMPUTER!!!
Wahahaha..

Be wary,the longer u sit infront of ur com,the bigger ur butt will become.
So for those who wans 2 keep ur butt small,and in e mean time,use the com.
u can try standing or squating down when using the com.
U noe who u r..LoL

Rmb to let ur eyes rest every 20-30min and look something tat's far away while using the com!
Dun strain ur eyes!!

And rmb,playing too much com games is bad for ur health=P
Sufting the net can be as fun too.

LoL..
Tis is lame

I am blogging now...

Gonna rush off for nite class later.
Well,there's gonna be a physics test tmr,better study for it.

On a second thought,i dunno if i shld go for nite class anot.
Sian la,nite class nite class,we super tired already still wan us 2 go for nite class.
[I had decided not 2 go]

Jus had a quarrel wif my sis,
Tink i gonna lose her for sure.
But i dun care,she is not worth my time.
Self-fish,calculative and always tink she's rite.
Quarrelled wif her alot of time le,but tis time,it's different.
Definitely,not tat i dun treasure her,is e other way round.
Respect towards her is wasted.

The worst thing 2 do to ur family is being calculative.
And not giving way.

Watever..

Who saes tat the elderly r always rite?
Who saes tat we shld give respect 2 those who r older den us?

U wan e respect,u earn it.
And by earning,u do it by actions,not by saeing
Action speaks louder den words

And obviously,i dun understand my sis, and she dun understands me either.
Tat's why we r unable 2 tolerate each other's behaviour.

Siblings?
From my opinion,They r jus a bunch of ppl who appears like they r close 2 u,yet they r like anybody else out there,whom throws u aside when u becomes useless.
They r self-fish,like wat my siblings n i do.
We make use of each other.
And we wont help each other in times of trouble.

The onli person tat u can rely on in ur family,is perhaps,ur parents.
Even so,who noes,they will betray u 2.

The onli person u can depend on is urself.
I may sound wrong,but tis is wat i am experiencing.

I haf better frens then u,at least they dun teach me how 2 smoke,or caused me 2 be dropped out of sch.
I dun brag my achievements,and i am not depending on u!
I dun need u in my life,u r jus a hyppocrite.
I would rather spend money on my fren den on u,cos tat's wat u teached me since young,by ur actions.
I was wrong,tinking tat u r such a great sis.
But i shld have knew it.

Haha,jus read zl's blog.

While he had his "Fruitful" day ytd,i had my fruitful day today.

Was out e whole day.
Went 2 K Box wif Wen Jie,sang the K lunch.
And it onli cost $11.10!!!
Wif a set lunch and drink.
I realli sang until i shuang..
Cos onli got me n wen jie,and it's 3hrs long.
1 thing bad was,our room was jus infront of e toilet,
I went 2 e toilet 2 poop,and realised tat we r EXPOSED!
I Could hear every single thing tat wen jie sang,
No wonder ppl kept looking in when they walk pass.
Ha,perhaps too hao ting liao.:p

Well,obviously,the set lunch was not realli tat big after,
Thus,we went pasta mania for our lunch at 2.
Woah,the soda sure is big!
It is BIG!

After tat,we went the town area walk walk,walked quite a number of plazas and mall.
Lazy 2 name them,
But saw a couple of things tat i wanted 2 buy.
Wahahaha.

We went far east,tat was when i was realli sleepy,jus felt like sleeping,even thou i am walking wif wen jie,tat was when i started grumbling..haha.nv fails.
therefore,we had our tea-break at Ya Kun,ate the LOTI,which was quite,filling??and of cos,for me to rest myself.
Almost cant finish it.

We den proceed 2 Sa gu's hse,met up wif Kun,hwee and er jie at eunos,
LoL,quite fun la..ate ALOT of things.
But 1 thing i hate most during these occasions are tat they nv fails 2 sing..
And it's louder then K BOX!!
And thus,we haf 2 endure wif the "Pollution"

Damn,ate alot of junk food today!

100th entry!

Yea!!!My 100th entry!!!
Kewl,after much perserverance and determination,i finally reached 100th entry.
Woo.tats definitely a tough thing for me 2 achieve,cos i hate writing essay.

I used 2 think tat blogging is a waste of time,and finds it ridiculous.
It's like writing essays jus tat there's no word limits,and it's random thoughts.
No format i required,and as long as it doesn't break e laws,u r free 2 write anything u like.
Tat was when i scolded ashley for being lame a few years back.

But ever since i started blogging,
I began 2 have of different perspection of it.
I finds it exciting n nice.
Especially when some1 reads it
Often i'll check my tagboard 2 c if any1 tags,
Got a satisfaction in my heart
Yea,rather den playing online games,i had now blogged.
Voicing out wat i feel,and wat i tink.
And improving my english and tinking skills
[Bloggin does helps]

And allowing ppl 2 noe me better.
Rather den keeping it all in my heart.

Was reading my previous entries,
Yea,there were my ups n down.
6mths,so many things had happened.
Yet,i dint realised it at all.
99 entries of each kind.
From e 1st entry,where i was purely testing blogging out of curiousity.
I had now addicted 2 it.
And without me noeing,tis is already my 100th entry
And i no longer blogs on my day.
There's tis entry which is so loooonng.
Tat's during chinese new year,where i describled every place tat i went,and the things i do.
Haha,come 2 tink of it,lol...wat was i tinking?
i mean,so long!!!!

Will continue blogging till better technology emerged.
Who noes,next time,u might hear my sing in my entries?
LoL..
But come 2 tink of it,it's already happening,tat's why u have mrbrown
Jus tat we r not using it onli.
But anything is possiblee.

Overall,i tink blogging brings ppl into ur life.
And u can actualli c hu realli cares jus through blogging,
A person who dun cares for u,dun bother2 read wat's happening 2 u.
Of cos la,there r exceptions la,some who care for u,but no time 2 come on9.
Or some who realli has nth 2 do.
So jus dropping by la.
Dropping by n being here is different!
When u drop by,u literally "drops" by once in a blue moon.
[Take note:Tats why when i tagged i'll nv "YO!!dropping by 2 tag!"]
Tat immedially tells the person tat his being insignificant.
If u wanna lie,lie in a smart way=)

100th entry

Visited some1's blog.

Saw wat she tagged,

And i realised smth,wat i've done,she still dun understand
Fine,if tat's e case,i am fine wif it.
Wasted my smses on her,for wat.
If u heed my advices a few mths ago,none of this would haf happen.
Furthermore,No one noes the seriousness of tat "minor" conflict tat u have caused.
No one!from my point of view,is tat a random fight?
U r jus trying 2 pick on a fight.
Pissed ppl off,does tat makes u happi?
If u were 2 tell me the "seriousness" of it,none of these sort would happen.
I have doubts on u.
But now,i will not entertain 2 u anymore


I dun gif a damn.
Get it?

I dun give a damn 2 those who do things 2 seek for attention.
(If u wan e truth,tat's wat i tink!)
I dun give a damn 2 those who ruin frenships over guys.
Tat's a despo.

If u planned 2 jump,tink 1st.
Izzit worth it?
Coward.
Dun ever try jumping cos u r not worth valer's tears.
And most of all,ur parent's tears.

My main point is,dun pollute the environment wif ur filthy blood.
It's seventh month,dun increase the probablity of meeting a Ugly ghost on e streets.

If i ever own any1 an apology,it would be valer.

May sound hurting.
But u pissed me off 1st.

If u r going back on ur bed crying on ur bed after reading tis entry.
So be it.
Tat's wat cowards do.
But in e 1st place,did u ever cried?
Or did u jus put on blog for sympathy?

Please,i meant good in e 1st place.
But u twist it around.

I did not have the intention of giving up a fren.
Its ur tots tat makes it so.
U read a msg n tot tat it's the end of the world.
Come on,u need 2 tink more.

Got tis strange...disease or wateva it is called.

Few days ago,i wanted 2 called claudia,so i call lor.
Den call call call,she nv reply,so i felt quite strange la,den i continue calling.
She started 2 realised dat i was actually calling her and she gave me a shocked face.
Tat was den i realised,i was shouting "Valer!"

Den jus now in class,i wanted 2 ask Jia yi smth.
And it all happened again,i called her yet she dint reply.
But tis time,after a couples of called,i realised dat i was saeing "Liyi"

Gosh,i actually called by another person's name,and i dint even realised it!


Ytd's issue was indeed a devasting 1.
And it proves 1 thing,
Ur Sub-concious mind is indeed far more powerful den ur concious mind!
But,There's a chinese saying tat goes.
"The onli person tat can fixed the chain must be the one who breaks it."
If tat person dun realise tis,i dun mind being the bad guy and inject tis into her brain.


Today's floor ball match was chaotic..It was also the 1st time we played in such a big game.
A few conflicts happened.
Some quarrelling and nearly a fight.
Overall,tat game was fine.
But today was definitely not a good day,
yea,due 2 wat happened ytd.


Overall,a day.
Lastly,Digimon is FUN!
Addicted 2 it.
ha,further info,read kian hao's blog.

Today gonna be the most memorable day of my life.

Chinese saeing,
A wave had yet calms down,another wave strikes.

Yea,tats true
First,it was kian hao,
Next it was hui qi

Both event affected me quite abit.
Wat a "eventful day"

Well,lets c wat happens tomoro.
Hope everything is fine.

Chatted wif xh,every1 has their own prob indeed,it would take me extra courage n consideration be4 asking ppl wat's is happening n going on..yea indeed,cos i have my probs 2.

Regarding wat happened during the nite class jus now,i am totally speechless.
1st time in my life i meet wif such prob tat realli makes me dunno wat 2 sae.
1st time c valer cry oso.
Sorry valer,no need 2 feel so guilty over it de la.
It started as a minor conflict.
Wat can i sae?
Wat have i done?
One thing for sure,i had did nth wrong
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Lousy lou kok kok sch.
JunHao Jus chatted wif me on msn,and i was the one who told me i am e one who won the competition!and he dint realised it.
Ha,but he asked me go join other competition oso.
Yea,true,like wat i had told him.
The sch is lame n budget.

Quality time Vs Quantity time

I believe tat all of u will definitely agree wif me tat 1min of quality time beats 1hr of rubbish-spending time.
ya,rubbish-spending time=wasted time

And now,i conclude tat 3yrs is wasted.
Judging from e attitude n wats happening

Oh well,i dint want things 2 turn out tis way 2.
Wanted 2 spend quality time
But cant,it takes 2 hands 2 clap
Tats realli 1 sad thing in my life


So true in amaths.
Studies 2.
Cultivating frenships.
Basically everything in life



Concerns,not busibody

Perhaps i am tinking too much into it

Dnt totally sux man.
Was wondering,
How did i ended up in DnT?
My worksmanship had nv been good.
Its horrendous man.

Since sec 1,The artefacts tat i did ended up spoiling,breaking,ugly or worst.
My theory sux 2.
So how did i ended up here?

It jus sux,sickening, cant stand it.But i'll have 2 finish it thou.
Giving me headahces.
My artefact still has a long way 2 go.
And its ugly.
Yea,the i am a very careless person.

New sitting arrangement is horrible
I sat alone.
Tats not wat i mind most.
Wat i mind most is the fact tat,
In less then 2 period,I was already quarreling wif kevin,who was seated behind me.


I am going crazy.

"People have short term memory,they forgets wat other did for their sake,or wat they did for other ppl's sake..,Or the times they had together."

For the 1st category,
Tat's sad,They take things for granted.
Wait till one day,when all these person r gone,they began 2 realise how impt r them.
I wont one 2 end up like them.
Tat's why i continued 2 perservered.
"Things and events dun come by by coincidence,they dun come by easy."

For the 2nd category.
Could be sad,yet good.
Why sad?
They might be doing out of hyppocritical acts
Jus 2 "fu yan" u.
Not sincere.
Or as a random charity
And they dun noe how much they will mean 2wards tat person whom they had helped,and take them for granted.

Good,cos they do it out of sincerity,yet they dun put in 2 heart cos it's jus wat they need 2 do,as a fren,too many 2 rmb,therefore, forgets all.


Jus some thoughts.


Another case
U dun blame others for ur failure.
Its all abt urself.
If u have the self-discipline.
No one can shake u.

If u dun have it.
Even the slightest things around u can get u distracted.
A fly flew pass perhaps?
...lame.






Lastly,i realised one thing.
When u thought u can count on e frens whom u tot r ur best frens when u r down,tink again.
I tot so,yet 2 no avail.
Some might even make a joke out of it.
But look around,they r others who is willing 2 lend a helping hand.

Perhaps tats wat we called.
"U do onto others wat u wan others 2 do onto u."
Perhaps when they need helped i dint helped them.
But tink again,they dint come 2 me when they needed help thou.

CAN ANY1 JUS FOR ONCE,ENLIGHTEN ME!?

life sux,
I told myself,i mus nv submit 2 sadness.
But it simply overwhelms me.
I have No control over it.
I can no longer manipulate my emotions.
It is it,who controls me.
Damn it.

Yea,perhaps i am over-sensitive towards issues.
But i jus cant help it.
My studies,My friends,My spiritual life
It's all messed up.
I dun wanna care anymore.
But each time i realli dun care.
I feel tat's not rite.
Felt like i have let down some ppl.
I ignored my studies,friends and God.
It's so not right
I dun noe how 2 express tis.

Had not been sleeping well pass few nites,times where i woke up in e middle of e nite,wif tears in my eyes.
Have,had suicide thoughts.
But i dun have e courage,
And most of all,i cant bear 2 be separated from friends,cousins and family.
And i noe,its a sin.




It's such a headache and heartache.

Need some1 2 enlighten me.
Jus wat shld i do next.
Academically,obviously,my dnt,i dunno wat 2 do with it..F9?
amaths,spent too much time on it.Yet i cant fully understands it.
Other sub,i losed focus during lesson periods.And spent most of my time on amath,tat i neglected them.

Friendship,Last year,yet i feel there's a gap between each of us.
And the attitude i've gotten.
the critism,which i started 2 find them disturbing
Had always thought tat,the friends tat i hanged out wif,the bonding is strong.
But lately,i find it wrong.
Little little things..Perhaps it is due 2 my over-sensitivity.
But i realli cherish alot.
Spiritually,i am weak.Jus so weak.
Yet,i acted strong.
Myself, i thought i had always been strong,cheerful and likeable.
Yet,i am utterly wrong.



I dun care if ppl sae tat i am fat,or annoying.
Tat's just me.
And Boon Soom is not annoying or fat,will it still be the Boon Soom ur noe?


Haix,tis entry sux man
Wat i feel,i blogged it,it's how i convey wat i find it aweward 2 convey de msg 2 ppl.

yo..

not gonna online so often le.
Now at ash's hse.
haha,long time nv come le.
Vivi changed alot.
haha,xu kang told me bout the stupid things tat ash did in class,tat MAKE ME LUFF LIKE HELL!!..haha

Nite classes is stupid.
Hate it man.
It was supposed 2 be quiet,and the atmostphere was said 2 be good.
But tats not happening.
Ppl r still toking.
I wont sae i dint tok la..
But i am not the roots of the "noise pollution"
Not a nice atmostphere 2 study in.=.=

some ppl wans 2 get into JC thru the easy way,but his not even being far-looking.


bye

After 3hrs of intensive revision ytd nite at West Mac,
I finally managed 2 finish my amath homework!!!
Tats a great achivement.
Bought a assesment book from BBS
Thought tat its rather useful.
And thx 2 it.
I finally understand the concepts of Vectors!
Took me quite a while thou.
3hrs,dint slack at all.
Tried my best.
Tats when i thought,"hey!! amath is rather easy yea?Cos its just pure applying formulae."
However,i found out on why i had not been managing 2 do amath.
Tats due 2 my poor memory.
Tell u wat,if i dun touch amath later on,i would most prob forget it.
=.=

Night class's starting next week.
Want 2 noe how is the atmostphere like.
Ytd at west mac was terrible.
Noisy like hell.
Ppl chit-chating like nobody else's business.
And the TV.
The stupid "Ooorrrr...chard Road" ad is super distracting.
For an instance,i thought some1 was making tat disturbing noise.
And there r oso ppl whom appeared 2 have come for studying,but was all the way chatting.
Ha,however,i was not much disturbed.
Was realli stressed ytd.

hmm..i realli tink tat i shld control my emotions.
Cannot let tat overtakes my concious.

Tats about it.
Gonna go for wedding dinner.
My cousin is finally getting married!!
she's 30++++ le..haha
No offence.

Haix.

I am so helpless.
So hopeless and lost.

Nvm..
Was feeling weird during amath lesson.

Srry 2 clau,valer,kh and chero.
Jus feel like i shld sae srry.
Tmr will be a better day.

Pls endure wif my behaviour..
Srry 2 every1!


...

oh well,gonna on9 less often
Cos O's coming.
But will blog a little when i haf the time.
Short entries will do.

Counting down..100 days.

Yea,tats all we have.
Gonna stop slacking.

Jerome flew off le.
And he dint tell us his email afterall.

Friends or Foes?

I am begining 2 lost my patients already.
Or izzit my "huo qi" dai zhong?
Or izzit i am easily pushed over?
Been losing my temper for the last few days..

Haixx...

Signing off
Boon

Had a nasty fall tis morning,
Thx 2 weekiat for tripping me.
=.=
Hurts la..wah lao,fall on my hip bone leh.
Crippled lor.
Finally recovered from my right leg,
now the injuries is on my left.
Alamak.

Woah,tmr is the last day of our tuition leh.
Time flies indeed.
Still rmb the 1st day we sae jerome.
Be4 he left,
He gave us the survival package.
Hope tat helps,
Tats the last thing tat he can do for us le.
The rest is up 2 us.
Quite a sad thing thou.
Supposingly if he dun leave,
We would most prob score an distinction for science n maths.
But now...

Today de amath teach new topic.
Vectors.
Wah seh,i dun understand sia.
Sian lor.
Can i pass my amath?
i can,i'm sure.
Gonna seek help for wen jie.
Her vectors quite good

Mahjong Fever.

yea,indeed "mahjong fever" for e past few days,
not world cup fever,but mahjong fever.
While other ppl were shouting "GOAL!""WAH LAO EH!"
Me,xs,yh,zm and zl were shouting
"HU AR!""PONG!""GANG!" or "CHI!"
haha,addicted 2 it,die lor.
Crucial year,still "fever"
Previously was "Pool fever",and now "mahjong fever".
Its like we r playing mahjong or pool almost everyday.
And soon,we'll start a Kicking fever.
Which for zm n xs,had already started.
Now,when will i ever start a "study fever?"
It's gonna take forever!

No its not.
For other ppl,they had started their revision.
I started 2 of cos,
But stopped half-way through.

haaa,gonna go for mahjong later again!
We jus had our mahjong session ytd.
Argg,hand itchy.
Comon,revisions gonna continue.


But!
Fever do fades.
And we get healed!!
YEa,i believed in tat.
Cooool.

Signing off
Boon
The person who teached me pool,teached me mahjong.
Oh gosh.

Changes for the better.

Change change change.
The world n ppl around us r always changing,
No matter who u r,wat ever u do.
Pls dun TRY TIS AT HOME!
Opps.
Anyway,no matter who u r,
Its human's nature 2 change for e better,
We wan 2 best out of our life,
Tats why we changed.
Every1's changing,
Emotionally,physically and relationships.
We changed.
Small or major things

But do we actually changes for the better?
Tats the question i am asking myself.
I had been changing,without me realising it.
Its was until jus now,while i was on my bed comparing wat i had been doing last year den tis year.
The things i do,the words i said,the thing i spent my time on and the person i hanged out wif.
They changed,too quick for me 2 even realised it.
And now,here i am tinking had i realli changed for the better or for the worst?
Had the ppl around me changes for the better or for the worst 2?

And wat is "better" and wat is "worst"
Different ppl had different perpection.
No one can judge.
I cant too.
I can proudly sae tat i had changed for the better,
but others can easily deny it.

When u changed,u losed smth.
I tink i losed alot of things already.
Frens,things and work.

But u gained too,
Frens,things and work.

At the end of of the day,r u happi wif it?
Judging from the way i am now.
Obviously,
I am not.

How i wish i can revert back.
But onli a coward will do tat,
i will not be like 1
Life moves on.
Boon Soom.
Go Go Go!
Shall change until i find happiness.

Struggling.

WHY must things turn out tis way..
Chatted wif wen jie on e phone jus now for more den an hr.
Shared my worries n problem wif her.
Haix.
Tis is the worst week in my entire life.
Spritually and worldly.
I seems 2 be contradicting myself.
Lost!

Life is tough.
Frens or church?
Which is a better decision?

Temptations nv ends.
Advice given from different sides have their reasons afterall.
Can debate.
Spritually,i shld't gif up
Worldly,i shld't spend my time in church
I cant reply anything 2 them.
Cos spritual words cannot be in talking 2 worldly frens.
And worldly words cannot be used in talking 2 spritual frens.
Which gifs a better advice?
They each have their own way of saying.
I am more den depressed already.

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Seriously speaking.
I dunno wat is it.
But the moment ppl starts 2 be not sensitive.
I flare up.
The reason why i gets angry is becos of insensitivity.
Its the onli reason why i gets angry.
Its such a broad word thou.
But i jus hate it.
Wat wen jie had said is true.
Cannot expect too much or we'll have bigger disappointment.

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U can give without loving,
But u cannot love without giving.

yea,i truely understands where i stands in some ppl hearts already.




Signing off
Boon