CAN ANY1 JUS FOR ONCE,ENLIGHTEN ME!?

life sux,
I told myself,i mus nv submit 2 sadness.
But it simply overwhelms me.
I have No control over it.
I can no longer manipulate my emotions.
It is it,who controls me.
Damn it.

Yea,perhaps i am over-sensitive towards issues.
But i jus cant help it.
My studies,My friends,My spiritual life
It's all messed up.
I dun wanna care anymore.
But each time i realli dun care.
I feel tat's not rite.
Felt like i have let down some ppl.
I ignored my studies,friends and God.
It's so not right
I dun noe how 2 express tis.

Had not been sleeping well pass few nites,times where i woke up in e middle of e nite,wif tears in my eyes.
Have,had suicide thoughts.
But i dun have e courage,
And most of all,i cant bear 2 be separated from friends,cousins and family.
And i noe,its a sin.




It's such a headache and heartache.

Need some1 2 enlighten me.
Jus wat shld i do next.
Academically,obviously,my dnt,i dunno wat 2 do with it..F9?
amaths,spent too much time on it.Yet i cant fully understands it.
Other sub,i losed focus during lesson periods.And spent most of my time on amath,tat i neglected them.

Friendship,Last year,yet i feel there's a gap between each of us.
And the attitude i've gotten.
the critism,which i started 2 find them disturbing
Had always thought tat,the friends tat i hanged out wif,the bonding is strong.
But lately,i find it wrong.
Little little things..Perhaps it is due 2 my over-sensitivity.
But i realli cherish alot.
Spiritually,i am weak.Jus so weak.
Yet,i acted strong.
Myself, i thought i had always been strong,cheerful and likeable.
Yet,i am utterly wrong.



I dun care if ppl sae tat i am fat,or annoying.
Tat's just me.
And Boon Soom is not annoying or fat,will it still be the Boon Soom ur noe?


Haix,tis entry sux man
Wat i feel,i blogged it,it's how i convey wat i find it aweward 2 convey de msg 2 ppl.