I am such a failure in expressing what i feel.
I can't seems to express my anger,frustration and sadness well.
And apparently, the only expression which i use to express all my feelings is smiling.
Many times, i don't know what am i smiling for.

This has become a problem, because people often think that i am so easy-going that i have no temper at all, and they start crossing the boundaries.
Yet, I cant bring myself to do anything.

Sigh...I am after all a mere human being, and all human being wants respect and understanding.
Yet..No matter how i try to earn them, it is always to no avail.
I hasn't drawn the line, but must i make it so clear and draw that line in the first place?
Why can't it be based on the mutual trust and basic respect that each human beings have for each other?

The differences between acquaintance and friends is that, firstly, friends give you a sense of belonging that acquaintance are incapable of giving, secondly, friends assists and pushes you when you are stumbled by problems, and lastly, friendships builds or mutual trust, respect and understanding, and that they know where the limits are by feeling them and not seeing them, and even when they see the smile on your face, they are able to sense that something is wrong.

If the basic respect and communication is broken, there's no way a relationship can grow, because the line is drawn and the platform which made of mutual trust,respect and understanding is broken.
And by then, no matter how much i want to salvage that relationship because how much it means it to me, is of no use, because it will be all too late, and it should have work both way from the very begginning.
sigh.