Was sharing with kun,wen jie and kian hao about my life.
And I came to realise that,i lead a very sad life man!!
I realise that I had been conned by so many people at one point or another in my life,and it was only till yesterday that i realise that i have been conned!

Apart from those silly lies that our parents and siblings used to tell us when we were still young.
Like,"We picked you up from the dustbin/streets or some other ulu places.",Or "We promise..."
And they never came to pass.
I was conned by strangers!

I think i have this really friendly face that con-mans loves.
They always love to target me to be their next target.
I can easily list down 10 incident,and this 10 incident only came to my attention yesterday that they were all lies,after serious analyzation by wen jie and kun.
Which in other words,i was conned,without me knowing it.

Lets not talk about the more serious matters.
Lets talk about the trivial ones 1st.

In primary school,my school mates loves to borrow $0.50-$1 from me.
That was considered a huge amount for us,as primary 1 and 2 kids.
I sacrificed,and lent it to them,only to find out that it never return.
It happened More then twice,but i just fall for it each time.
To make things worst, I have always find it awkward to remind them that they had borrowed money from me..
Once,i finally plucked up the courage to remind,because i was rather depleted.
And guess what?they claimed that they had forgotten all about the it.
It's ok,take it that i was too kind-hearted.

There's a 7/11 near my house.
And back then,i love to wander around on streets and always end in that 7/11.
That uncle,told me that i will get free ice-cream if i help him with his stuffs.
I ended up helping him with his goods,and mopping the floors,and cleaning the glass pane.
And all i get in return,was a $1 ice cream.
Ok,take it that i was doing free charity.

I have always been a fan for video games due to the influence from my elder brother.
I love to go CS's arcade to play the video games there.(I am still visiting it,despite the changes.)
Argh..people borrowed tokens from me,and never return.

Years later,i upgraded!
Yes,i began going safra instead of CS.
The first online game i played was diablo 2.
And thinking back,i think i was rather dumb to pay "installments" to those adults that sells diablo 2's by items.
Calculating the amount i spent for these virtual items.
It's easily more then $100-200.
What happened in the end?
My account was deleted by blizzard because they found hacked items in my account.

The next game i played was,Ragnarok Online.
I first started playing the international server,and bought an noob account that one of the con-man created.
Silly me,let him created the account without asking the the information.
I spent $18 on the reload card,and $20 for the noob items.
I played for 2days,and did not login for a week or so, i recalled.
And i never login to that account ever again.
Why?
Someone changed the password.
I then started playing another server for 1 year,owning a few accounts.
And each month,i have to pay $18 for each account.
It was only till almost everyone quitted RO,that i follow suit.

When a person is prone to being cheated,i think it relatively applies to all aspect of their life.
Even for buying things.

Perhaps i was just naive back then,i thought i have grown more alert.

I bought a zinc shit coloured sling bag for $40.
I dint check on the goods,cause i trusted the shop-keeper,thinking that he wont cheat me.
I was WRONG.
There was something wrong by the side of the strap..Cause it was the last bag in stock.
And i did not realise it.
One week later,the strap snap.
And i recalled,for one day in school,i have to drag the bag all around..=.=

That wasnt so bad,cause i have bought a real zinc bag.
Immedially after the bag snapped,i hurried to buy myself another one.
I landed myself at FAR EAST PLAZA,and bought a LE COQ SPORTIZ BAG for $70.
I thought that this might last me longer cause I was paying much more for the quality.
And it did,one month later?it snapped,like the previous,at very same place.
I tracked back to why it snapped.
Intially,i thought it was my fault,for not taking good care of it.
But after much investigation,i realised that,that was a FAKE LE COQ!






I bought a prepaid reload card,and it says on the card that i can exchange the it for a free mac meal.
I tried exchanging yesterday,and the person told me that...
THe promotion has long expire.

Even for studies!
We paid jerome $200 per person for the same time-slot each month.
To be honest,jerome should have decrease the amount of tuition fee that each person have to pay.
He did not..
And,he did not even complete the tuition with us through o levels.!

And recently,i think every one know that.
I Was conned off by terence for a month's salary.
I never see him since we last departed.
He seems to have disappear into thin air.
And poor me,my official 1st working experience,was a bad one,thanks to him.


Sad life right?..
I am having this huge amount of self-pitiness in me.
Was telling kian hao this afternoon,and he even dare to joke telling me that he was cheating me all along!...
Kiat asked me why i did not kick the person who conned me.
And my reply will be,i did not know i was conned till yesterday.

Whats the moral?
I lead a sad life.
And i trust others too much,even strangers.

So,please,dont cheat me anymore!!!!
I am dumb..and i believe xiong sheng will gladly agree with this statement.

you are such a ass.you are such a ass.you are such a ass. you are such a ass. you are such a ass.you are such an ass. you are such an ass.you are such an ass.you are such an ass.you are an ass.you are such an ass .you are such an ass.
you are such an ass.

YOU ARE SUCH AN ASS!
LOL

Me and kun kinda like cheeyan's saddist story so much that we actually ask her to come up with another serial of saddist stories.
Well,she is still in the midst of writing chapter ??..i am also not quite sure.
What i am pretty sure of,is she is a saddist,and only a saddist,can come out with a real SADDIST story.
Enjoy~

Chapter 1:

Starring :
Jian Koon
Boon Soom

The cold chilled wind blowed against their skin, infliciting a sharp pain on their faces. Boon and Koon, in the midst of the amazon rainforest, tried to find their way out of that deadly woodlot. While losing their way was already awful enough, dark clouds started to gather and there came a rainstorm. Instantaneously,Boon and Koon went scuttling in search of the nearest shelter. As the two ran, they found a huge mansion a couple of yards away. In desperation, Boon and Koon scurried in like two rats(HAHAHA). Once there, Koon held out his hand, turning the door knob effortlessly.
'It's Unlocked!',Koon alleged and the both of them entered the house.
Unanticipatedly, the house lighted up. Their eyes widened seeing all the fire torches come alive while 4 figures paced down the mahagony staircase slowly. As they reached the bright surround, koon and boon's eyes widened even more!. The four figures had pearly whited skin whick struck them, sending chills down their spine.
'Hello, I'm gabriella. Welcome to our home! We seldom have guest up here..',The daughter smiled welcomingly.
At once, Boon and Koon heaved a sigh of relief, returning her smile.
'Stay for dinner?',the mom asked.
'Yes we'd gladly!',They replied in unison.
'Please sit here while we prepare dinner!',the dad said.
'Chop! Chop! Chop!',, Koon and Boon heard weird sounds from the kitchen.
'No! Slice! Slice! Slice!',another voice said
Slowly, Boon and Koon crept behind the walls, peeping at all the commotion.
'Wrong wrong! We have to mince them!',The daughter smiled a sinister one.
'YEs YEs Yes! We'll have minced human curry for dinner later! WAHAHA',the mother squinted her eyes.
'It's been so long since we had human meat...Mmmmm....We're going to make this a feast....',the daughter shrieked.
Boon and Koon shivered gazing at each other with their jaws hanging in the air.'They're....they're...GOING TO EAT US!',the two screamed. They attempted to run as fast as their legs could bring them but yet, it was all too late. The dad and son, with a long rope ran a couple of rounds arond them and they were all tied up.......

Stay tune for chapter 2

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I was late for lab lesson today!
I woke up at 8am intially,but being the super pig-like boon soom,who loves to procrastinate,i decided to rest for another 10mins,before i get ready for school,i close my eyes and
The next moment i open them,it was 9.15am.!
By then,i was already late for lesson by 15mins.
Ha...i did not rush,instead,i drag my feet all around.
And reaches school at 9.45.
Cause i know,there will not be any penalty or punishment for the 1st lesson of each subject.
And i was right..

Today's 1st lesson was..visiLi
It's a subject that explores our creativity.
Like giving us some shapes,and ask us to transform them into images with the help of texture and lines.
It's something like the dnt i took in secondary sch.
We need to draw,and think of creative ideas.
haha..to make things even more coincidential and convincing..
My lecturer's name is Simon Wong.
And we address him by Mr Wong..
Ahhh..i cant escape..
Think i might need to visit Mr Wong(Jyss) in future for guidance.

I shall not elaborate more on today's lesson,or your might get bored to death,or rather,fall asleep.
Like what i did.

I am super tired..i feel like sleeping.
But i am meeting my beloved 4E4 friends for dinner later!
So,i must get going~

Ahhh...
After comparing my timetable with claudia,kianhao and weilun.
I conclude that my timetable is sort of,STUCK UP!.

Shit sia..today was such a tiring day.
Had a few lectures this afternoon.
They were ok..
Wah..i love the cmath lecturer sia.
Soo chin chai 1..he allow us to play dota in lectureS,as long as we dont distract others.
Cool right?
Bought the cmath lecture notes after the lecture,after flipping through,i realise that i still cant escape from the clucth of amath!
P.s:cmaths stands for computing maths,not core maths.

Met up with xiongsheng and kianhao for lunch at business sch.
Hmm..after stoning there for about 15mins,we decided to proceed to It sch's canteen cause the scenery and temperature in business sch's canteen are not up to standard.
At least,not ours.

I ponned the last lecture today.
Cause i wanna go down the company to retrieve my pay!
But..haiz,wasted trip..Cause got something here and there,that your will not be able to understand.
Anyway,what pissed us off was...we cab down to MOM,and realise that it's close,and i will have to go down chinatown another day!!!
Pissed off by stuckup terence.
Waste my train fare.
I am so drained by fares.
That,i think i will slim down cause i am like skipping so many meals.

Wednesday is gonna be a busy day,i need to rush down for audition,and rush down to mom.
And wednesday is the only day that i am rather free with the stuckup timetable i have.!


I think i am beginning to adapt to poly life le.
THankfully..
If that stuckup timetable is anyway better,i will also feel much better.





I dont miss 4E4 liao...

Cause i realise,they are just a phonecall away.
I am like able to see them whenever i feel like it.!
And thats soo cool!!!=)
Totally not stuckup..thankfully

Perhaps,thing are not as bad as i thought it was.

The 3rd day of the orientation camp was so much better then the 1st and 2nd day.
Our class spirits and unity were there.
And i kinda,love it.
And,it all goes out to the peeps in C117,and the OLs,andrew and benny.!
We will win the war!

It brought me out of that dejected and abandon feeling.
And I am feeling so much better.
If i was posted to other caregroup in my diploma,i think,my previous post would probably be my suicide letter.

In the 3 years to come,i hope things will get even better.!
And i hope i will get to know more about my classmates,and have fun while learning.

It's too early to judge C117.
It has just been 3 days,and we have 3 years more to go.
But,this is a good start.
And i think,in the years to come,i will bond with them,like how i bonded with 4E4.

Still in the midst of adapting.
THings will definitely improve=)
And i am starting to love C117.
Cause it rocks.

But i love 4E4 more.
Cause it rocks more!
But life moves on,if i dont move on with it,i lag behinds it.
I just hope,my friend,will miss me,like how i misses them.
Remember,come IT sch find me huh!
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Replies to tags.

Valer:yea..all of you have a place in my heart,and no one will be able to replace it.

Josh:Haha,i think,someday,we will get used to it,just how fast will we take to adapt..haha,of course miss me lah,if not,i go engine sch find you.

Linen:ya lo,thats what i thought too..haha,if o'level english compo de topic is on Emo,we sure score A1..LoL

Kun:yaya,and it's stuck at chap 1.

Cheeyan:wah lao,you ah bo nver tag,when tag tag so long,i also dont know how to reply,but i think you already know the answer liao lah...we chatted so much on msn..but must tag more often ah!

Kiat:Yea,i will try not to think as much=)thanks for your concern!haha,its ok to flood,i wont mind=)

Xiong:Of course got your name lah..i got liang xin 1 lo!!hahaha...free time,must find me in it sch huh!!cause i suppose there are more chio bu in my sch then yours!!

KokKian:hmm..ok,thanks!anyway,happy belated birthday!

Xh:you better dont,if not i will find you,and crash you into tiny little pieces..LoL,kidding~8 years leh....thankS!

Chero:thats what i thought too,but still,i think i will miss you people very much..i just hope C117 will be like 4E4 in the years to come.

Willy:Thanks for the advice!=)but i think,i will freak most people if i dont..i think,alot of people have experienced that before.

Siti:WOoo!!I am so surprise to see you here,thanks,will cheer up!!!Hope that i will be able to know your better in the years to come=)and i am already experiencing it.

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Thanks for tagging and for the concerns.
I really appreciate them.!
Will try my best to pull through.
Tag more often!!!
For those who dint,i am so disappointed in you!...
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haha..KIDDING~
=.=

Stepping into a whole new chapter.

We had our 4E4'06 BBQ the other night.
I personally feel that it was definitely a successful one.
Probably the best yet.
Much of the credits goes to the organizer for spending and chipping in their money and time.
But i think,what really contributed to the success was US.
4E4'06.

Although it wasnt filled with crazy activities.
Or any beach games.
It was still fun.

What matter to us,wasnt the activities or the food served.
What matter was,the companionship of 4e4.
I think,perhaps one will only realise how important things are until they lose it.
And I am beginning to miss those times in class already!
I remembered those laughters that we shared.
And those jokes that we made.
Most importantly,the friends that we get to know.
They are all part and parcel of what that contributed to our growth.
4E4'06 was the one that brought us from young kids,to now,young adults.
We learnt from our mistakes,thus making us stronger.
Hmm..Like what claudia said,we went through thick and thin together.
And 4E4,may not be the best in terms of academic,or even unity as a class.
But what define us is,the poor unity,yet strong belonging.

It was really great coming together as a whole once again.
Probably,coming together the final time.
Well,no one can predict what might happen tomorrow.
Human's heart are constantly changing,
The "enthusasim" to gather 4e4'06 every year that we have now,might fade in time to come.
It's not impossible,but,who will be willing to spare time to organize another gathering from our poly schedule in time to come?
Most of us,might just procrastinate and wait for things to happen.
And at the end of the day,nothing is done.
It will take much more effort for the organizer to come out with another gathering.
And whether who will step out of their comfort zone to organize it,thats another question.
But i personally hope it will be an annual thing lah!
I am just afraid,it will never come.
1E2'03 was just another typical example.

We will be starting school real soon!
4E4'06 has become part of history already.
Lets flap our wings and soar to the sky!!!
All the best to my fellow ex-classmates!
I Will miss all of you!
Especially kianhao,zhiliang,cheryl,claudia and valer for the time we had in and out of class.
And the trust your entrusted onto me.
And of course,xiongsheng,weekiat,kokkian,josh,chow and wanying.
For being there at some point in my life when i needed help.
Whether your will miss me anot,thats another thing lah.
*hint hint*hahaha

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2more days to orientation.
I am excited!

Oh my God!
I have no idea what i was doing in the previous entry!
Perhaps,i was pretty desparate then.

I dont wanna be a emo kid!
And i dont think it's a trend to be emo!
Why am i sooo 感情用事。
Sometimes,i wish i had think before doing any action!

You see,friends are suppose to bring colours and joy to our world.
It beats the purpose if it brought misery instead.
And it's really how we look at things that makes it either a joy,or a misery.
I am less optimistic,thats why everything seems to be negative.
But in real fact,there are much more positive things for me to look at!
I am always looking at the small percentage of negativity,and missed out the large percentage of positivity!

I think i am those kind of person that thinks that all good things are fake.
Hmm..this is bad.!
And this is making life miserable for myself.
Like what ashley said,if we spent our time worrying,how are we suppose to live our life?
No wonder i am so emo.
Cause i have lost the joy of living!..

I shall be less emo in my entries from this entry onwards.
I guess those who read my blog might also find it very demoralising.

Lets forget whatever bad things that happened to us in the past.
Tomorrow is gonna be a better day.
Some people find motivation is this sentence.
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Ok lets share something good.
I am officially,80kg!
Woot,i have never gotten below 81kg!.
This is a breakthrough!

And i am getting a prepaid card later.
For temporary.
Rather then condemning the harm that it has brought to us.
Why not learn to enjoy its convenieness?...

But then,i still find it contradicting.

And,remember to tag!
let me know that you are here!

Anyway,was watching youtube with ah kun yesterday when we came across this video!
LoL,its super funny,to us..hahaha
And it reminds us of our beloved wen jie.LOL
EnjoY!

Someone,ask me out!
Yes,this may sound despo.
But i realise that,the more i stay at home,the more i think,and the more i think,the more is the misunderstanding!!!
And the fact that i am only thinking about the negative things,gives me occasional moodswings.
I am really going hay-wired,if this doesnt improve.

To make things even worst,my brother just quitted his job,that means that he will be staying at home every single day.
And with him at home,i just feel sooo annoyed.

Haiz..i am thinking about things again.
Am i such a bad company?

Ok,lets divert the topic.
Ok,i have nothing to divert to.
Cause basically,i have been rotting,and being vegetarian simply sucks.(no link)
I had the worst march and early april in my whole life.
See what cellphone does?


Misunderstanding Piles if they are not cleared.
When two becomes good friends,it does not happen by chance or purely coincidential.
It involves trust,sacrifice and companionship.

Good friends enjoys the company rather than the activity.

Alamak,i think i am toooo obsessed and disturbed by the word "friends".
I guess, i am afraid of being lonely.
*hu hu hu*

I did say i am determined to loss weight right?
Yes,i am determined,and i am not joking!

I went to the supermarket just now.
And bought a chunk of carrots,those tree-like vegetable,apples,eggs and potatos!!!
I love potatos so much,and i happen to watch extream makeover yesterday and learn that eating yams,sweet potatos and potatos for two long months,can make you lose 20pounds!(without any work out!)Woo.
Well,I am now also doing some researches on the net to find out more about healthy dieting.

And as for my work out,i am meeting kian hao later to jog.
We are planning to jog for 2 miles.
Hmm..but i always get pang seh by him or rather,he will go mia and i will not be able to find him.
I am waiting...

Yes..i am determined!

After reading willy's blog.
I decided to find out what my personality type is.

I took the test 4 times,each with a different outcome.
I am lost,i have no idea which choices best describles me.
You see,due to compromising.
I have been acting against what i feel or think.
And due to that,i dont know whether to tick the choice which i have been doing,or the one which i think is the most appropiate.
Hmm..the contradiction is,should i answer according to how i reacted,or how i wish i had reacted.
AHHH....clear my mind!!
I am going hay-wired!

School is reopening soon.
I am mentally preparing myself to embrace the future.
So that in time to come,i wont feel so sad when I lose contact with my friends.
*hu hu hu*
Well,i am losing contact with them already just because i am temporary without a cell-phone!
I guess,people nowadays are over-relying on Smses that they forgot how make phone calls!
Dont be shy!!I have a very beautiful voice!!hahaha.
Just call my house,and there,I will answer to it.

I am just curious who my future classmate will be.
I Guess everyone is just as curious as i am.


I am excited.!!
Let me handle my future well.
and same goes to my future and present friends!
I wanna know new friends and also stay in contact with my AWESOME present friends!
I just hope i wont label them as "Past" friends in time to come.
*hu hu hu*
So,to my present AWESOME friends,Dont write me off,ok?
It will be like throwing a chest filled treasures away ok!..
Hahaha..ok,no more self-praising.


And yea,i am determined to lose weight?
I know,this is like the 10000 thousand time your are listening to it.
But,i am rather determined!
It shall begin with my diet.

I am hearing so many people claiming that they are tone-deafed.
And i hear them speak with so much emotion and tone!
If you are tone-deafed,you basically sing with a tone.

Lastly,i found this recording studio recruiting some demo vocalist.
And yea,i am calling them to arraNgee for an audition.
Hope that i will be able to be recruited and earn some money! haha.!
In case you ask,the job of a demo vocalist is to sing the demo version of those songs that are freshly written so that the artises are able to listen to them and decide whether to sing them or not.



P/s:*hu hu hu* is the sound of me crying!

After reading willy's blog.
I decided to find out what my personality type is.

I took the test 4 times,each with a different outcome.
I am lost,i have no idea which choices best describles me.
You see,due to compromising.
I have been acting against what i feel or think.
And due to that,i dont know whether to tick the choice which i have been doing,or the one which i think is the most appropiate.
Hmm..the contradiction is,should i answer according to how i reacted,or how i wish i had reacted.
AHHH....clear my mind!!
I am going hay-wired!

School is reopening soon.
I am mentally preparing myself to embrace the future.
So that in time to come,i wont feel so sad when I lose contact with my friends.
*hu hu hu*
Well,i am losing contact with them already just because i am temporary without a cell-phone!
I guess,people nowadays are over-relying on Smses that they forgot how make phone calls!
Dont be shy!!I have a very beautiful voice!!hahaha.
Just call my house,and there,I will answer to it.

I am just curious who my future classmate will be.
I Guess everyone is just as curious as i am.


I am excited.!!
Let me handle my future well.
and same goes to my future and present friends!
I wanna know new friends and also stay in contact with my AWESOME present friends!
I just hope i wont label them as "Past" friends in time to come.
*hu hu hu*
So,to my present AWESOME friends,Dont write me off,ok?
It will be like throwing a chest filled treasures away ok!..
Hahaha..ok,no more self-praising.


And yea,i am determined to lose weight?
I know,this is like the 10000 thousand time your are listening to it.
But,i am rather determined!
It shall begin with my diet.

I am hearing so many people claiming that they are tone-deafed.
And i hear them speak with so much emotion and tone!
If you are tone-deafed,you basically sing with a tone.

Lastly,i found this recording studio recruiting some demo vocalist.
And yea,i am calling them to arraNgee for an audition.
Hope that i will be able to be recruited and earn some money! haha.!
In case you ask,the job of a demo vocalist is to sing the demo version of those songs that are freshly written so that the artises are able to listen to them and decide whether to sing them or not.



P/s:*hu hu hu* is the sound of me crying!

Had a really long day yesterday.

LoL,Went CS to play tekken with ah kun.
Oh man,i used to thrash him like hell,but now,we are on par.
But,it's ok,that wont be for long.
I think i underestimated him,thats why i was caught off guard.
We wasted quite alot of money at the arcade cause both of us refuses to concede defeat that we come out with a policy that the 1st person that spend $2 will not challenge each other anymore.

We then walked around CS and TM before proceeding to Expo.
I was quite reluntant.
But well,i promised wen jie that i will go,therefore i must go.

Reached Expo at about 6.
And loitered around the carnival.
We realised that no cash transaction is allowed.
Only coupons,and kun did not bought any!
We saw Da jie at a distance,and then there's this conversation between me and him.
Whatever that is,it's between the two of us.
And so,we were blessed by da jie!
And we went to get our foods.

Met up with his cg member and we entered the auditorium at about 7.15.
Didn't manage to talk to wen jie cause she was serving.

Hmm..it feels weird.
Instead of being a member of the church.
I am now sort of a "New Friend".
Well,er jie gave me a "new friend" Easter egg thats the fact.
So,Kun was acting lame and he introduced himself to me and introduce me to the church.
Thats lame,cause i know all that!
Nothing much has change except for the bulletin.
and kun's new look and wen jie rebonded hair as compared to the last time i was there with them

The service was great.
And i enjoyed the drama.
It was kinda touching.
And the fellowshipping with ah kun and wen jie.
I also saw some of my ex cg mem,and they are quite hmm..happy to see me!
Some of there dont even know i was gone.
LoL,ok..overall,It was a great day.!


As for the altar call.
I did not responded.
I am contented with my present life.
But who knows what will happen in the future?

I am actually a very simple person.
All i want is,communication.
If you appreciate me,tell me straight.
If you hate me,tell me directly.
If you feel that what i am doing is wrong,dont hesitate to correct me!
Isnt that as simple as ABC?
Why cant people achieve that?

I always believe that communication is the best tool.
In the midst of quantity time spent,there should also be quality time,
And to spent quality time,to me is,2 or more people,sit down(whether in front of they computer,or together) and share what their opinion.
I dont like to spend my time with some1 i dont really understand.
And ended up compromising.


And regarding my sensitive nature.
I am in the midst of changing!
Well,at least I saw "adapt"
And it's only right for me to change.

Perhaps,thats why i am soo talkative.
I can talk for like 3hrs,cause i think it's weird when we just stare at each other.
Claudia and cheryl should know!
LOL..

Oh well,till date,i have not receive my salary.
I visited the MOM website,and came across this,

The total salary due an employee must be paid to him/her on the last day of employment if:
- The employee is dismissed on grounds of misconduct; or
- The contract of service is terminated by the employer.

If this is not possible, it must be paid within three working days from the date of dismissal/termination.

This is getting ridiculous!
How can i not know such a important term!
Fancy them cheating a green horn like me!?

Hmm,i guess,i will have to call the company tomorrow,and meanwhile trouble karista to help me look for terence.
And if all this doesn't work,i will have to report it to MOM.

But of course,the best solution is,
My pay will be in my account the next time i check my balance.



There seems to be a barrier,and i will my lying to myself if i say there isn't.
Should i and can i pretend that nothing has happened.
Or should i confront it and break it down.
But i cant do it single-sidely,i need help from the other side.