Stressed out.

I have lots of things to sae,but i cant expressed them into words.
I jus feel so much like a loser.
With a pun.

Getting rather depressed lately.
I have always been the one giving,yet it is so discourgaging for me to not receiving.
Who can i turn to when i am having sleepless nites with my problemS?
Who is e one tat truely understands me?
People turns to me when they r feeling down.
I tried my best to comfort,but who can i turn to when i am feeling down?
Jus tis..

I felt like a dirt.
A irritating brat.
A Temporary shore.
A shelter against the heavy rain.
Haix..

Did anyone sae tat it's good to give and not receive?
I admire tat person man..
His attitude rox.
But does tat attitude exist in e 1st place?

Humans need love and concern.
Vice versa.
With a path or another shut down,the person will soon become a puppet.
ARgh..seems like one path of mine had been shut down.
LOng ago.

No one cares how am i feeling.
Not even at home.
No one understands.

U tink tolerantin is so fun?
try it den.
Try getting insulted numerous no of times abt ur weight,size,strengths and interest.
Show me how long can ur withstand.

My strengths had turned into my weakness.
The tolerant or optimistic nature tat i had haf turned me into an vulnerable being.
The Boon soom tat can sing,now cant tolerate critisism.

Pieces of my thoughts here and there.
I cant even sort it out.
When the aunties asked me why am i feeling so tired.
Wat can i tell them?
Will they care?..

Everyone have their own problems..
So do i.

Jus tat..
I have no idea where the problem lies.
Izzit kinship?
Friendship?
Emotions?

I am a loser.
I losed the respect tat a human being odds 2 receive.
i losed my frens.
i losed my family.
and now,i am lost..
I feel so much better 2 years back when i will always indulged myself in cyberland.
Ragnarok,diablo.
Tat's where i found my dignity.
And the freedom to choose wat i wanna do.
And where i wanna go.
And time passes by real fast.
It's better to pass my days by.

This is how a loser like me feel..


Dear God..are u there?

Lots to sae....