Blogging again

its been a week since i blogged...so fast get sian already...
haix..alot of unhappy things happen..actually nt unhappy things ar..jus small things which i feel its rather sad for me..in sch, at home..claudia sae i very scary, got split personality..actually,my mood jus swings for the extreame..i dunno whether 2 be quiet or noisy,but being quiet means?pulling a long face..sometimes, i jus dun wanna 2 tok,or maybe i shld nt deceive myself,i am in a bad mood..i sometimes gets lost..i dunno which personalilty is the real me..
I wonder why am i behaving like this...i used 2 be cheerful...i wasnt like tat last year, am i 2 stress already or 2 self-concious?dunno ar...but my mood jus swing,and after tinking through...i feel sorry,for losing my temper 2 those alround me..but i dun apologize,becos sometimes they actually didnt put it in their heart..or they dun appreciate
But thankfully,frens will cheer me up when i am moody...thanks
I DUNNO!!!why is my personailty like tat...i needa control...control...but how...
haixxx...i am in total despair..tink tat i will really nervous breakdown...hope nt...pray hard
Everything is just freaking me off...happi things,sad things..i noe tat i shld't be behaving this way...i finally noe wats stress..dnt...studies..haixx...i needa pull through..
I am starting 2 get bored of my daily life..everyday in weekdays, things tat happen are so normal..nothing surprising everyday..go sch,come home,afternoon nap,watch tv,online,homework,sleep..i stop playing games..get bored too..waiting for weekends, where i can spend time in church and cell group and wif cousins..

All these happens so fast,ever since i came 2 church..so stress..i noe of cos tat God is putting me 2 test...Umm...Praying tat i will pull through...if nt something might happen